I Saw Myself in My Son This Weekend | Trusting God Over Worry and Control

I Saw Myself in My Son This Weekend

This weekend, I saw myself in my son and not in the sweet, sentimental way we often talk about. In a way that stopped me in my tracks.

My son really, really, really wants a dirt bike.

Not just a casual interest… an obsession.

He’s been researching nonstop.
Figuring out how to earn more money.
Watching videos.
Scrolling listings.
Talking about it constantly.

And if I’m being honest? It started to wear on me.

I found myself rolling my eyes.
“Oh my gosh, we’re talking about this again…”
“He just needs to let it go for now…”
“Why is he bringing this up again?”

None of what he was doing was wrong but the intensity of it felt like too much.

Then my husband looked at me, smiling after yet another dirt bike conversation, and said:

“You know who he’s like, right?”

I couldn’t help but laugh.

Because I knew.

The Moment It Hit Me

Later, my son said something that completely shifted everything.

He looked at me and said,
“Mom… what if I don’t earn enough money in time? What if nothing shows up on Facebook Marketplace when I’m ready?”

I paused.

I looked at him and said,
“Babe… you are so far ahead of where you need to be. These aren’t things you need to worry about right now.”

And as the words came out of my mouth… I felt it.

Conviction.

Because those weren’t just words for him.

Those were words for me.

When God Uses Your Kids to Speak to You

In that moment, I realized something:

These are the exact things God has been trying to tell me.

I worry about the future.
I stress about timing.
I question if things will work out.

What if it doesn’t happen?
What if it takes too long?
What if the opportunity never comes?

And yet, here I was—so confidently reassuring my son:

• When the time is right, it will happen.
• If it doesn’t, God has other plans.
• Focus on what you can do right now.

Isn’t it funny how easily we can believe truth for others…
but struggle to hold onto it for ourselves?

Trusting Like a Child

My son trusts me.

He believes that his dad and I are going to guide him, provide for him, and help him figure things out.

And in that moment, I felt God gently ask:

“Why don’t you trust Me like that?”

Oof.

Because the truth is—I should.

Letting Go of What Isn’t Mine to Carry

This weekend reminded me of something I so easily forget:

It’s okay to have goals.
It’s good to work toward something.
It’s right to pray about it.

But it is not my job to carry the weight of the future.

That belongs to God.

My job?

To focus on what’s in front of me.
To be faithful in today.
To take the next step—not all ten.

Because I cannot control what happens months from now.

But I can trust the One who already knows.

A Gentle Reminder for This Week

Maybe you need this reminder too:

You don’t have to hold it so tightly.
You don’t have to figure it all out right now.
You don’t have to carry the “what ifs.”

Pray about it.
Work toward it.
But then… release it.

This is what I am learning to do. Otherwise it steals our joy. It wreaks havoc on our mood, and it causes us to misplace our trust. 

God is working all things out and we can trust Him with our deepest desires. 

When the time is right, it will happen. That door will open.

But if it doesn’t, that doesn’t mean you’ve failed, it means God is still writing your story in a way you can’t fully see yet.